Thursday, November 17, 2011


Today has been a different day. It is a day of thoughts and memories. Every year I try not to allow this day to get me down, but something inside of me just won't let it go.

Thirty two years ago today my sweet Mom left her place here on earth and walked the streets of gold. She left suddenly and quickly. Which does not make it easy on family.

"Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted."

I know thirty two years seems like a very long time, but when you are young and you lose your Mom, there is a hole left in your heart. It really does not heal, but it becomes like a wound that has a scar over it. You always know it is there.

With time the pain does subside, but the memories are still there. And I am so thankful that our loving Lord has come along side of me to lift me up on the days when the memories bring back pangs of pain.

"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

Spread your wings............


Unknown said...

I know your loss is always tucked gently in your heart & mind but anniversary dates tenderly bring the loss to fore. May you know that I am praying for both her beautiful soul & you, my sweet friend. Every word you say is true, the hole remains, nothing is ever the same.

We lost Mother on Christmas Eve & G'ma Hepsie on Christmas Day ... so our Christmas is quieter than most.

Love you, Jocelyn. If I had your # I'd call you, so hugs sending your way.
Have a beautiful & blessed Thanksgiving,
& a lovely weekend.

NanaNor's said...

Hi there, I can so relate; my mom entered glory 38 yrs ago and I well know that hole in your heart you mentioned. I am thankful that I will see her again, whole and healed in the presence of Jesus. My dad also is there so I often feel like an orphan; thanking the Father for adopting me.
Hugs to you today.

Doniene said...

You're not alone. Both of my parents are gone and both passed at 61 years of age - so they missed the grandkids, especially my dad who has been gone for 20 years. On the anniversary days, I always ask the Lord to remind me of the pleasant memories and He always holds me in the palm of His hands. Praying that for you! Blessings

Allie said...

Oh yes, that hole does not heal - I lost my dad when I was 17 and I miss him so. It doesn't matter how much time goes by, you never stop missing them. The memories are so sweet though, and I know I will see him whole and healed and more fully alive than I can even imagine.

Debbie said...

I'm so sorry, and I understand how you feel. I feel the same way every year on the date that I lost my dad. It hasn't been thirty years yet, but I know that when it is, I will still feel as you do, as if it happened just yesterday.

I praise God with you for his comfort which doesn't have expiration date.

Sherry Southard said...

Evey time we lose someone there seems to be a part of ourselves that we are missing. I lost both my parents 14 and 15 years ago. My sister 10 years ago and my husband will be two years Dec. 2nd. I rejoice in the fact that they are all sitting at Jesus' feet and He is preparing a room for me so that I can see them sometime soon. I am looking forward to that day.

Pat @ Mille Fiori Favoriti said...

I understand you sense of loss and grieving. I lost my dear Dad when I was a teenager under very tragic circumstances. I still miss him so much, but I do believe we will see each other again in Heaven one day and that belief makes all these years since tolerable.

{{{ Hugs}}} and Blessings

Renee said...

May God bless you with His healing touch as the passing of your mom comes to mind this time of year. My mom died 9 yrs ago and I still miss her...I take comfort in knowing I will see her again some day.

andsewon said...

I understand. We lost Mama in 2004 seems like yesterday. She lived with us for 25 yrs so was like losing a huge part of our lives.
I like to think of her shout'n and sing'n on the streets of gold with all her family.

Charlotte said...

It is always hard to lose a mother but especially hard when you are young. My husband lost his mother when he was 12. He is 77 now and I don't think he has ever really gotten over it. Certainly it affected his entire life because he was shuffled from one relative to another until he was old enough to be on his own.
Thank you for sharing your heart.

Pamela said...

It must be so hard to lose a mother. Our Sarah would have been 24 yesterday so we've been struck with memories, too. Your words are true -- it's a hole. But "underneath are the everlasting arms."

Joan Davis said...

Losing a loved one is devastating. I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that the sweet blessing of knowing your mom is with Jesus encourages you today!

Blessings, Joan