First, Fifth, Forever

Dear Mom,

This weekend marks the celebration of Mother's Day. A day set aside to honor all Mothers. And although it is a day for honor, it is also a day of reflection. You have been gone now for over 30 years, yet I still remember your sweet smile and the love that you held in your heart for me.

I was your child born to you late in life. You had lost a daughter 8 years prior to my birth. You never could speak of this baby, as the pain was too great for you to bear. So when I was born , I was the baby to bring youth back into your life. I was in essence a miracle baby in 1950's, when most women didn’t have children in their 40’s. I cannot imagine what pleasure my birth brought to you as you and Dad were well into the second half of your lives.

There's so many things I wish we could have shared. I miss the special times we had together, shopping, or going to lunch. I miss your special Spanish dinners. But most especially I wish you could have shared the time when your grandchildren were born. You would have loved your role as a Grandmother. My whole world changed the day my own daughter was born. Her sweet little face and beautiful dark curls won her Dad and me over from her very first appearance. Motherhood is a huge job. With no job description, you would have been a wonderful source of help to me.

I know there were times when we didn't see eye to eye, but your love was ever present and faithful. I'm sorry for the times I hurt you. As the years have quickly passed by, with the many milestones in our families lives, I find that I miss you more and more. I've always said that nobody loves you like your Mother loves you.

Happy Mother's Day Mom. I love you.

Jocelyn

A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts. ~Washington Irving

First, Fifth, Forever